August 28th, 2005

Write to Live

Writing: On Inexperience and Victimization

This is a rambling, somewhat disorganized post. I'm working stream-of-consciousness here.

I got to thinking this morning about the sort of characters I tend to enjoy writing, and I was asking myself if those are good character types to write about, or whether I am pulling punches by writing the kinds of characters I do.

I realized that I tend to like writing characters who are, to put it into Pernese terms, journeymen. They have completed their training period, and when I write about them, they are competent in their chosen profession and reasonably skilled at it, skilled enough to handle the problems I throw at them, if I am in sole control of the story environment.

I also tend to dislike writing about victims. If I am the creator and controller of the story setting, my characters may get hurt, even badly hurt, but I will do my darnedest to not make them victims. I do this because, the one time I did write a character who was a victim, she and her deity were like Paul Graves on a rampage, and I realized that this was a Bad Thing. Because this character, Senara, was so much a victim, I had to make her very strong in other ways to counter that so I could stand to write about her, was extremely intense.

I wrote that story because I was ticked off at reading fantasy stories about supposedly evil deities who didn't scare me. So I came up with the most evil deity I could think of, and yep, he scared the living daylights out of me. Which is another reason why I don't write Senara stories anymore. The problem is, I wonder, if I tone Ilviak down, is that a cop-out? Am I being a wimp? Or am I being smart and preserving my mental health? See, I read this quotation once: "As a man thinketh, so is he." I worry that, if I write evil stuff, it might influence my thinking in ways I won't expect or like. It's a question I've never been able to satisfactorily answer.

Anyway, I wonder if it is a good or a bad thing that I prefer for my characters to start out with some experience? I guess, for me, rookie stories just aren't what I want to write. For instance, I prefer to write about doctors, not first-year medical students. This makes me wonder if maybe I am missing out on certain aspects of writing. on the other hand, first-year med students don't have fewer problems than doctors; they have different problems.

So...I don't know. I guess all I can really do is write the stories I want to write and do my best to make them work well.
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Seth's Plot Conclusion - Solved

SPH: I am such an idiot. The solution to Seth's plotline in SPH has been staring me in the face for months, and I never saw it.

I give deep and sincere apologies to Viv, Sarah, and Azreen. To do this I have to, in effect, use a time-turner and go with the idea I originally had for having Seth kidnapped by the Death-Eaters at the graduation party.

This will allow me to deal with a lot of plot problems which occurred following the graduation party, problems I created because I was upset and playing Seth very foolishly.

I don't expect that anyone will want to collaborate with me on this at such a late date. If anyone does want to collaborate on this plot, you're more than welcome. But I know I've procrastinated and floundered, and the rest of the world has long since moved on.

That said, if you would be interested in writing for Zascha/Erzsebet, Suse, that would be wonderful. I need for Zascha to be her natural self to Seth. This will cause all manner of chaos among the Death-Eaters, but well, the truth had to come out at some point. If you don't want to do this, I understand.

Viv--The DE will know for certain that Paul was a traitor, because I'm positive that Zascha will rip the truth out of Seth's mind, and she has no reason not to share the information.

Right now, I'm not sure if Artemisia and Petrus will survive.

At last, I feel a little happier about the ending to this game. I may be the only one who even cares anymore; I don't know. But at least I feel better, having finally decided how to proceed. I hate being indecisive. It has been massively frustrating to not know how I could end this plot.
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